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[elysiangirl]

holy fuck.
how do you keep up with all the lies?
and furthermore, how do you sleep at night knowing people care(d) so much about you and your lies????


i'll admit, i had suspicion all along that ALL the tragedy could not be heaped upon one 23 year old, but i wanted to believe, especially since i had met you in person. i didn't want to be even more cyncial than i am although i admit to pulling away since your trip to toronto. don't know why that time but it seemed right.

i would say i'm embarrassed that i fell for it, but i'm not. i have an open, loving heart that YOU took advantage of. YOU should be embarrassed, not me.

you should be ashamed.
i hope you get help.

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[ex-xavierism85.livejournal.com]

I'm shocked. I didn't know about this "illness" of hers until I read about it in another journal.

I feel bad for those that were "close" to her. It sucks when someone lies to you over and over. Karma...that's all I have to say.

You're a beautiful person with a beautiful heart. I love you for that.

LOVE YOU!

Muah*****************************

[elysiangirl.livejournal.com]

i never knew about the lung cancer, either. until today. until i started seeing all these posts. as far as i knew, from the emails we shared, she was studying for a law exam and then getting ready to paint and move into a new condo.

sick.

but yes, i was skeptical, but i figured i would feel better about myself if i believed in her and found out it wasn't true, than if i didn't believe in her and it was.

and i love you, too, xavier. very, very much.