Hey kids!

May. 21st, 2012 08:05 pm
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Is anyone here? I only see a few of you guys out there. I sure miss y'all.

I know I say that every time and then disappear. I just really don't have much to say.

Things are good. I have goggies to add to my kitties and I love them all.

Ok? Awesome sauce.

Maybe someday I will be back regularly. I just don't find time to be on the comptooter much anymore. Doesn't mean I don't read, though.

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Much better on the emotional front. Things are still tough, but they are all pretty much first world problems. I'm handling it better now.

So...how are YOU?
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How does time pass so quickly and stealthily?

I'm not well, kids. Physically I'm okay but I feel like I'm standing on the brink of an emotional breakdown.

I'm so blessed with my husband. He keeps my feet on the brink. Without him I would long ago have gone over.

I won't stop trying to move back to solid ground.
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Merry holidays, kids.

Love y'all like WHOA.
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Hi y'all. It has been a long time. I do come read up on you from time to time but actually commenting/posting is obviously not happening.

So let's try this.

I haven't been doing much other than dealing with my Mom's health (boo) and working (yay and boo) and enjoying our house and time with my man and my cats (super-duper yay_. Lots of "ands" in there but whatevs.

Nothing exciting to share.


Anyway, just know I haven't forgotten about you, and I hope someday I will have something to post about.

In the meantime, keep on posting because I'm reading.
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I hope everyone who is coming out today, who has not yet come out, and who has already come out finds peace, love, respect, acceptance, and the equality deserved by ALL.
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So, when I was in Phoenix in July, July 24th to be exact, I was performing in a show. I went to do floorwork and felt a pop in my right knee. Then pain. Then I was walking around like grandmama for the rest of my visit and beyond. Went to the doc when I got home and they said, here, have some Lortab and Celebrex and come back in two weeks if it's not better. This was 3 weeks after the injury. Two weeks after that (five weeks post injury for those following along at home), I was sent for an MRI which showed....nothing. So next stop, arthroscopy. Had surgery a week ago yesterday and my followup today. All he did in the surgery was clean up some wear and tear.

What now?

So there's no real reason for this pain I'm in? It's just wear and tear? GREAT.

The sudden tremendous (to me) swelling from two days ago? Meh, probably just a reaction to "doing more".

And this warm spot on my knee? After humoring me and running his hand over it, "You're fine".

I guess I am crazy after all since the answer I get most from doctors is that there is never any evidence to support my issues. I may feel the symptoms, but I don't have any problems.

Maybe I do have a very mild case of fibromyalgia after all. Or maybe doctors don't give a rat's ass about looking past the "standard range."

One thing I do know I have is a bit of bitterness and I am SICK of HURTING. Is THAT evident?


Aug. 4th, 2010 06:23 pm
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Go Judge Warner! Go California! Down with ignorance and bigotry!!

I know it's still a long haul, but it's a step in the right direction.

The CIVIL RIGHTs direction.
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I got up to go potty this morning and I could walk! Bending my knee and everything!

Oh, Mr. Cortisone Shot, we are BFFs. I will totally french braid your hair and give you my last piece of gum.
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So, on July 24th I was performing floorwork and felt a POP in my right knee. Since then the little Mickey Fickey has hurt like WHOA. I went to my doctor when I got back to Birmywood and he sent me to an orthopedist today. The good news is that it is probably just a tear in the cartilage or a sprain. No surgery was mentioned. Thank Iggy. The bad news is that I got a cortisone shot in my knee.

Can I just say I was terrified of a shot in my knee?? Like, feeling like I was going to pass out, scared. Like almost reduced to tears, scared. I can't imagine anything hurting worse, save the spine or the foot. Seriously, I wanted to lie down I was so scared of the impending pain.

My PCP said, "It's not that bad" when he mentioned it and I mentioned it being something I REALLY. DID. NOT. WANT. The orthopedic nurse said, "It's not that bad." I asked each of them if they had ever had a shot to the knee.


MMHMM. Well isn't that special.

But in all honesty, it wasn't that bad. I kept my eyes closed. It hurt. The needle was as long as my arm (I have really short arms), but it wasn't that bad in the great scheme of things. The pain of my knee for the last 11 days has been much worse (though I have loved being fussed over. What?). The worst part was waiting over an hour to get seen! Geesh I've gotten spoiled lately with not having to wait forever to see a doctor. BUT. If I endured all that and it still hurts, someone will pay!!!

So all I have to do now is keep taking Celebrex for the swelling and take it easy. If it's not better in two weeks we talk MRI.

So here's to you, Mr. Cortisone Shot. Do your magic, mkay? And have a Bud Light on me.

Ph33r m3.

Dec. 30th, 2009 03:19 am
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In an effort to kick this four month old depression, increase my energy and improve my health (and weight)I started my "Couch to 5K" training today. Running has GOT to be the first level of Hell. I HATE it. It killed my lungs and now when I laugh I sound like I have smoked three packs of Camels a day for the last 30 years. I do not and never have smoked! But at least I can laugh. I read it will go away as my body becomes more efficient at warming the air as it enters my throat and lungs. It will undoubtedly get better as I am more efficient at controlling my breath.

Nevertheless, I intend to persevere and get to a point where if I don't enjoy it, I can at least DO it and be able to call myself a "runner". This from someone who has always said, "I only run if a very big, nasty person weilding a very big, nasty weapon is chasing me."

Today's training wasn't perfect. I was supposed to walk 1/8th of a mile then jog 1/8th of a mile until I'd made four laps around the track for a total of 1 mile. Uh huh. Well, it didn't work out like that but I ran more than I thought I would be able to so there's that. When I can, I will follow the directions exactly as prescribed. Maybe tomorrow!

And now I'm off to continue learning medical vocabulary. It's pretty cool how it works I must say.

In other news, this:

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You know it's been a long time when you try to log in with the user name elysiangurk and forget how to update your journal.

Victoria "I Dare You To Make Me Smile" Beckham to replace the only judge whose sweetness, albeit nutty, counteracted Simon's pure meanness? Good thinking. Glad I don't even watch anymore.

Why don't "Audit" and "Regen" work on my life like it does in CAD?

It's easy to see that the point is the sharp thing at the end, but how, exactly, do you know which is the short end of the stick?

I'm just sayin'.
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I've seen it a couple of places and heard it so I thought I'd share it.

If one took enough S1000 bills to create a million dollars, that stack would be about 4" high.

One trillion dollars?

64-69 MILES high.

Holy moly them's a lot of bills. I could cut coupons and scrape by on 64 miles worth of stacked ONE dollar bills.
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Good thing #1: TUESDAY!!!

Good thing #2: Hiking (part of) Squaw Peak

Good thing #3: Battlestar Galactica

Good thing #4: The people and animals in my heart and life

Good thing #5: Clementines


Jan. 7th, 2009 11:06 am
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My matra has always been "no regrets". Everything I've ever done has made me the person I am today. Sure, there are things that make me say, "Ooo Heather...not your finest moment" or "Really could have had a fufilling life without that one" but really, why regret it? You can't take it back.

I realized a moment ago that I actually DO have one regret.

I regret I ever uttered any words even resembling any sort of support for the current administration. I did not vote for IT, but I remember when Shrub moved in on Iraq I said here that I did not know what the answer was but as he was our president I would give him my support.


What was I thinking?!?!?
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posters note: [livejournal.com profile] tupelo rocks my socks and her son is the bombdiggity.

Election eve conversation
Suley and I were eating pizza while Tad was at MMA. I had CNN on. Obama came on, of course.

Suley: "You know, I'm voting for Obama."

Me: "Really?"

Suley: "Yeah, I am. For president."

Me: "Do you think he will be a better president than McCain?"

Suley: "Well, McCain is a vampire lord."

Me: "And Obama's not?"

Suley: "No, he's not. McCain is evil."

Me: "I see."

(I change channel to HGTV for about ten minutes, then flip to more news featuring, of course, Obama)

Me: "Look, there's your friend."

Suley (indignantly): "WHAT?"

Me: "Obama."

Suley: "He's not my friend!"

Me: "Well, you said you were voting for him."

Suley (getting worked up): "But yat doesn't mean he's my friend!" (Jumps off couch and waves arms frantically) "I just got sucked into the Obama charisma machine!"
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I was just on my way to the el jay to mention that I also loved the fact that I finally got to see my Carriebear and I saw she had posted! How's that for serendipity? Or..something.

I wasn't able to see her when I was in Birmingham and though the circumstances weren't ideal, it meant SO very much to me to see her this past weekend. She is overflowing with wedded bliss AND she's HAWT so there's that.

Just so you know, Carrie, when I go, you can put out some of your mom's fudge out for me. Holy heaven in a pan.
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Well, Minimaw made her transition last Monday so last week was tying up loose ends at work, traveling, and doing the things that are done when the matriarch of your family passes away.

She's been an icon in my life for 40 years, it's hard to imagine she's gone. But she is, and she was a strong woman of faith so, like Anna, I know she is with her God.

There were tears, it was hard, but there were jokes and laughs and good times with the family as well. It was awesome spending time with my Anna that's for sure. The food was good, too, no doubt about it - I pity the fool who didn't grow up in the rural south.

I don't know what to say here. Right now, I just don't care about much. One one hand I feel defeated and beaten down and on the other I expect my life to take a wonderful turn.

The pendulum has been set on CRAP, so now maybe it'll swing on over to FANTABBALOUS.
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not only Spastic Colon, a reference you will understand if you go look at Hallmark's Hoops & Yoyo e-cards, but also, evidently for meltdowns.

I had an appalling night Friday night on top of a frustrating week before and we won't get into all the b.s. from this past year. Friday night was just AWFUL at the dance studio. They were setting up during our class for a burlesque almost two hours after our class and, while the guys who were setting up were quiet and respectful, the directors of the upcoming show...not so much. Talking in regular speaking voice while we are trying to teach over moving equipment and shoppers in the back...walking around like we are in THEIR way...So yeah, that was pees off number one.

Pees off number two happened when in front of my class, the studio owners, these directors of this other dance company, people shopping, and these guys setting up, a student decides to berate me because she has hurt feelings blahblahblah. She raised her voice, so I started getting mad and raising my voice, and now I'm embarrassed not only because of how she treated me in front of all these people, but also how I let her get to me. It worked itself out for the moment, but there will still be some "um...check yourself" coming up. I also have an "um...check yourself" conversation to be had at work coming up. Note, I am not afraid of conflict, but I don't enjoy it and right now, I don't want to face ANYTHING. But I digress.

Back to the studio. Some guy who was evidently there for the burlesque show mistook my class for part of that and started saying really nasty things to one of my students. Of course I didn't know until after he was gone but I was all...hello is it a full moon?

Then I call my cousin who called me needing to talk and find out it really is only a matter of time before my Minimaw is going to make her transition, as it were. That's upsetting, but it adds heavily to the upset that I wasn't there when my lama needed me. I love my lama.

I still woke up the next morning pissed off/upset/off-kilter about all this. I held it in and pushed it down,though, because I was so delighted to see Dann and Leo and to hang out with them. Then I was happy to hang out with my friends and (after months and months of pretty much not drinking at all) have (5) 7 & Sevens within 4 hours. All those sevens were for you Dann. Except that they were for me.

So today, though I had no hangover (thank IGGY) I was tired, so tired, and finally the proverbial straw broke the proverbial camel's proverbial back and Heather went into It's-Just-My-19th-Nervous-Breakdown mode.

Brad was, as always, a sweetheart and a love and held me and rubbed my head and talked to me. So I'm better now and going shoe shopping.

If shoes can't make it better, can't nothing make it better.
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